The project explores relationship between memories and a place in London which represents home to me, through intimate self-portraits shot against brutal yet sublime landscape.
I respond to the surrounding environment, spontaneously reflecting my thoughts and feelings of a moment through performance, where a camera becomes my only companion. The body performs in the landscape and portrays the feeling of being trapped. Triggered memories from childhood result in a theoretical reaction to disconnection. This place projects tranquillity and the fig tree growing nearby ties in my memories to this place.
Growing up I often felt the need to fit in and the fig tree throughout the years was always a reminder of belonging. My work is concerned with the ideas of home in the eyes of a child in comparison to adulthood.
The project is shot using analogue camera which is a fundamental tool to my practice. The use of medium format camera allows me to slow down my working process and spiritually connect with a place. Having limited number of images in each roll of film allows me to plan ahead and choose a spot within the area where my performance will begin.
The use of traditional photographic process in the darkroom allowed to extend my artistic practise and experience the calmness and control of making the project from the beginning to the very end of a chapter. The mistake at first glance led me to thinking of our perception of colours. Within my artistic practise the colour pink resembles my childhood memories, flesh of a fig fruit and femininity which further inspires and motivated my work.
