Hala (ora/halo in Arabic)
He calls himself ‘pictorialist’ artist rather than photographer, who uses camera as a tool to produce the work. The colours of the photographs is completely false. It reflects the mood, which is important for someone with bipolar disorder. He pours the paint into the negative plates fitted to the camera when taking photographs. He refers to the colour chart or the cognitive behaviour therapy for a colour which represents the current mood; Blues and violets represent the emotional depression. Yellows - happiness and so on. He is going to places to seek isolation. “Quest for nothingness” is seemed as commitment to self.
I had a chat with Steve Macleod about my work. I talked through roughly about my project and what it is. I explained that the work is about a location where fig tree is located and that connects me mentally with my childhood and home. My body performs as a responsive tool to my emotions on that day.
He told me, that he finds the work interesting and sees me as an artist rather than a photographer, which I think is a compliment, because I always felt like I am an artist using photography as my favourite medium.
He suggested me to look into film and/or possibly moving “still” image which I have actually tried out, but haven’t reflected on it. I filmed myself coming into the frame and taking a photograph of myself and moving away from the frame. And this is what he suggested to do. I will do this with a digital camera rather than the phone.
Also he said that he likes the way I talk about my work and it might be that it could work well as part of the display - headphones with my voice telling a story about the work that I am making and how I am doing it. I feel positively after the talk with Steve Macleod. He gave me good ideas to reflect on and complimented the work, which motivates me to carry on.